Sometimes I Wish

sometimes the night was beautiful
sometimes the sky was so far away
sometimes it seemed to stoop so close
you could touch it but your heart would break
sometimes the morning came too soon
sometimes the day could be so hot
there was so much work left to do
but so much you'd already done

Sometimes I wish I was better at drawing.
But then I remember that I wouldn't do drawing justice if I tried to pick it up seriously.

Sometimes I wish I was a better writer.
But then I remember that it would be dull to not be able to read authors better than myself.

Sometimes I wish I was a better cook.
But then I remember that my husband loves my cooking.

Sometimes I wish I had a garden.
But then I remember that I have a black thumb.

Sometimes I wish I had flaming auburn hair.
But then I remember that it would cramp my wardrobe, and I have ginger traits anyway.

Sometimes I wish I was pretty.
But then I remember that my husband thinks I am, and that's enough for me.

Sometimes I wish my faith was deeper.
But then I remember how long it takes a mustard seed to grow into a tree.

Sometimes I wish I could visit Britain.
But then I remember that I love sunshine.

Sometimes I wish I had a stronger spirit.
But then I remember that God is working in me with a spirit that is even stronger than what I could hope for.

Sometimes I wish I was a better wife, daughter, sister, aunt.
But then I remember that my family loves me.

Sometimes I wish I had never existed, so I would never let my family down.
But then I remember that I would rather let them down once in a while, than to have never known them at all.

Sometimes I wish I didn't feel so alone at times.
But then I remember how alone Christ was for me.

Sometimes I wish I was more articulate.
But then I remember that I communicate through writing.

Sometimes I wish I could keep my big mouth shut.
But then I remember that I'm not very articulate anyway.

Sometimes I wish I was more knowledgeable.
But then I remember knowledge is nothing without wisdom.

Sometimes I wish I had more wisdom.
But then I remember wisdom comes from God.

Sometimes I wish I had lots of shoes.
But then I remember I have only two feet.

Sometimes I wish I wasn't discontented.
But then I remember that I'm defeating my purpose.

Sometimes I wish I had beautiful handwriting.
But then I remember that my writing is legible.

Sometimes I wish I was a faster reader.
But then I remember that no one is clocking me.

Sometimes I wish I didn't frustrate my sister so much.
But then I remember that she cares about me.

Sometimes I wish I was perfect.
But then I remember that I am hidden in Christ.

sometimes I wish...but then I remember

sometimes I think of Abraham
how one star he saw had been lit for me
he was a stranger in this land
and I am that, no less than he
and on this road to righteousness
sometimes the climb can be so steep
I may falter in my steps
but never beyond your reach

4 ripostes:

  1. This is lovely. So simple and yet so full of truth. Thanks for sharing it.

    Ajjie >'.'<

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  2. I wish I could give you a hug right now.

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  3. This hits rather close to home. In an ouchy way. And the only thing that comes to mind is: "... there are better things than being comfortable."

    Sometimes I wish I had never existed, so I would never let my family down.
    But then I remember that I would rather let them down once in a while, than to have never known them at all.

    Sometimes I wish I didn't feel so alone at times.
    But then I remember how alone Christ was for me.

    Sometimes I wish I was more articulate.
    But then I remember that I communicate through writing.


    You've been reading my mind, you have, and I'd be a fool to say it didn't hurt more than a little. But I'd also be a fool not to bless you for it.

    Bless you, JennyDear. Thank you for this.

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  4. I love you, Daddy.

    Thank you, Sonja. Thank you, Katie. It was really a joy to write, and I needed to get it down on...I suppose one can't call it paper, but you understand. And it's funny that you should mention that quote, Katie. I've been thinking about North Wind recently. I know a lullaby that reminds me of her, and I sing it often. Funny, how things work out like that.

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