you could raise me like a banner in the battle
put victory like fire behind my shining eyes
and I would drift like falling snow over the embers
but for now just let me lie
A part of me is, understandably, incredibly excited because I've wrapped up the first draft of yet another Plenilunar novel! That's three novels - count them: Plenilune, Talldogs, Drakeshelm. (Can't count Ethandune yet because it needs so much work. Sorry.) It's unbelievably exciting and rewarding and I'm so proud of myself.
Aaaaand another part of me is pretty much downright terrified. This is the part I don't like. This is the part where I'm adrift for a spell, knowing there are still gobs of stuff I need to work on (Ethandune...), feeling shell-shocked about finishing Drakeshelm, and also the terror of "What if the ending isn't as good as it should be? What if I failed this one? What if my story falls flat?"
Don't you worry, I'll pick myself back up in a day or two. Right now I'm going to focus on the victory and start brainstorming for...what I have to do next. But I figured others have probably finished first drafts before and possibly even felt that mingled excitement and terror, so I thought I'd let you know - I am 100% right there right now.i guess that's why we have editing
i finished a novel! that feeling is not getting old, you guys. not. getting. old.